lyn, 20. a female who's grown up too quickly for her own good. sometimes, she is too cynical and often, a pain in the ass. parties her life away and anticipates the day she swears off alcohol.
I am officially bored with tumblr.
Like I’ve had enough with updating my status over facebook and twitter.. & now I have to succumb to expressing myself with little words on tumblr? BORING. I want to go back to blogspot.
maybe if we’re not bounded by the three words, “In a Relationship” - we tend to be happier.
Yes?
to stay afloat of current nuances, i must start writing and continue reading. i have failed to keep up with current affairs - ashamed that i had to ask my 12 year old sister why is obama on CNN talking about climate change. this is when i found out this IS current affairs. oh how bitter i felt. how leftout and outcast and how pariah i felt at that point of time. not sharing the current affairs the way i used to be able to. let alone being able to grasp the latest and forthcoming singapore news.
ah - the life of working and studying & always reading psych articles and psych this psych that - i am truly afloat in the psychology (old) articles but never the world news. i have better start - before i fade away into the shadows of the darkness. before i fade away and end up with lousy grammar and poor vocabulary.
i need to pay more attention to the news around me.
we spend our lives searching for our other halves. many a times, people seek perfection but if we look ourselves in the mirror, i wonder if we are perfect ourselves. maybe we should stop searching for our perfect other half and be contented with what we have. perhaps we should stop searching.
I wish you’d love me the way you did the first time you held my hand.
I’ve been finding time to blog recently but it seems that time is of the essence recently. I am whacked out like a 40-year old woman everynight before I go to bed. Everytime I reach home from a program at school, I sleep immediately after I eat. Best of all - I don’t wake up until the very next day.
I’m truly starting to age. The whole body is aching and even on a trip to Bangkok leaves me with my stress level extremely high. I couldn’t even relax my muscles on my Thai Massage rampage. I had to go for massage every day since arrival at Bangkok.
Recently, I have been contemplating the very pillar I’m holding on to. I think walking away is easier said than done.
exams have finally ended! this relief feels almost like i just finished my o’levels.
perhaps it’s because it’s a degree and this is my first time taking a paper that’s stressing me out. partied last night only to find out that i’m just so not cut out for partying anymore.
i need some retail therapy.
Plenty of things to update and blog because I’ve spent my whole life away doing random things other than sitting down and writing.
Major things have happened the past few weeks that I’ve completely spaced out of time. Honestly, work is extremely tiring and I am honestly old. I can’t bend down and pick up any items without hearing the occasional bone-crack. I might be 20 but I am starting to sleep at 10am (latest 12am). This is bad news because social life equates to practically zero and I spend most of the days working, working and doing random assignments for my studies.
The only thing I look forward to every single day now is my next overseas trip. Or my next off-days (which I don’t ever plan). I keep hoping that I can take my mind off the world and go overseas just to have my HP switched off and my entire internet connection wiped out. Only then will I learn to relax and think about where to go the next day to have fun & party.
I keep planning for the next overseas trip but it just does not seem to crystallize. I wonder why.
There are too many reasons why I do not want to be an adult.
#1 Pay my own (frigging) bills.
#2 No more allowance (Occasionally my sweet mum & dad would give me some moolah)
#3 My entire body needs sleep. Gone were the days where I can party till the sun come out and still work for the next 3day camps.
#4 Seriously, money is the root of all evil. We work our whole lives away just to await the next pay check so we can purchase something else to make us broke all over again.
#5 The future is in our hands, so they say. But really. The future scares me because everytime I decide to think about it, I worry that I just won’t be able to make it.
#6 Social life equates to zero now because I am too tired to make the effort to meet up with friends. Even the occasional meet-ups, I have to drag my sorry lazy ass out.
#7 Pass me the tequila, martell, flaming lambo and I’m wasted at 1am, even when the party has not started.
#8 Life sucks and I am not even 21 yet.
